Never has a period in my life that I feel myself being so incapable like what I feel for myself these days. I don't know why I was chosen. I don't know what can motivate me to discipline myself and have a better time management. I don't know how to organize my schedule so that there will be a slightly higher chance that I can be more well-prepared before my placement started in December. I am just in a total confusion. Don't know why I'm here, how far I can go, and if I can really continue to walk on the road I've dreamed for long. Would Obama still be today's US president if he thought the black could never be elected? Would Forrest Gump be that successful if he thought he could achieve nothing with his impaired cognitive ability? Could a person still achieve something if she has already lost faith in herself?
How powerful is 'dream'? How powerful is passion? When I was in high school, form teachers reminded us never just listen to your heart without considering your ability when making a decision on what to study in the university. It's good to have a dream, but following a dream may not neccessarily lead you to where you want to go. In the toastmaster club meeting today, one of the speakers talked about 'dream a bigger dream'. If the original path connecting you to your dream does not seem to work, yet your dream is still alive, then go for another path. Keep the fire burning, keep the dreams alive, keep the faith, these are why there are so many beautiful miracles in the world.
'Life is a box of chocolate, you never know what is the next that you can get.' Another quote I heard today. Lucky that I have a dream and I still believe my faith will take me to the final destination. I'm waiting for my favorite piece of chocolate to come.
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@i_love_sea - 你係咪講真架...
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I am totally in the same mood and situation as u my Dear... I said life had a big discrepancy between dream and reality some days ago, and what u wrote was the best elaboration of my mind... I think when one loses ones motivation, the passion will become vague and one gradually loses ones direction... we should have a break, get refreshed, stand up with our chins high and head for the paths again
I am always there 
@i_love_sea - 多謝你, touched
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@TAniA_msn - Thank you Tania.
I guess you're right. Losing one's faith in oneself means we're losing the intrinsic motivation to go on. And I don't think one can achieve something high without this powerful intrinsic motivation. That's why I'm worried. We do need a break, we need our confidence back. Don't lose faith on yourself. I know how subtle the improvement curve of triathlon is. You need time to see an obvious improvement. :)